i hate when i “like” someone’s comment on one of my friend’s status’ that im not friends with and they wanna add me. gaahhh wtf!!!
why is everyone hitting me up i cant stand it! but i like chillin. ahhhh ahahahhaha
i hate getting yelled at for being happy. i hate crying over it. i wish my mom would just accept me being happy for my life. i love my life. except everytime she yells at me for being happy. everytime i get happy i scream and laugh uncontrolably and im drinking a beer with my dad im not even half way done and im screaming with joy because im happy (and i do this regularly) and she says “ALRIGHT THATS IT SHE IS NOT HAVING ANYMORE BEERS TONIGHT” what the fuck:’( everytime i get happy i get yelled at. i just wish my mom would be happy and smile. i havent seen her smile and be happy in forever. it upsets me because im always happy. i hate crying over me being myself and im NOT SORRY FOR IT. i love who i am. i hate that she doesnt. :’(
when i was growing up i’d spend most of my time hanging out with my brother meaning i’d spend my week with all guys. and because of hanging out with guys i guess you could say they treated me like them in a way. and i would never get asked out or be called cute or anything else. i’d never gotten any compliments except from my relatives. and the time that i did ask someone out was in seventh grade and he said no even tho i knew he liked me. because his mom would tell me that he was crazy about me always talking about me. i was devasted. i thought my life was over because he was moving to california. it was the first time i had asked anybody out. and no one ever asked me out EVER. it wasnt till freshman year that i started getting compliments. and it was kinda weird too cause thats when i first had gotten glasses. i had no idea why i was getting compliments either. everytime i got one i thought it was a joke because i’d never recieved any. but i gained confidence that year and i didnt listen to any of the guys’ compliments cause i thought everyone was lying. and now im nineteen, just finished up my first year of college. and i keep getting hit on or hit up. and im soo overwellmed with always getting hit up daily. and i keep getting compliments one right after the other and sometimes idk how to take it. about over half the time some guy actually does want to hang out with me i think he’s lying. cause when i was little all the guys would joke around and act like dumbasses and yeah just the way i would hang out with them it seems like all the compliments i get and how many times someone wants to “chill” im appauled and wonder why does anyone want to waste their time on me? it still takes some getting used to. but the funny thing is is that im completely confident with my body and who i am as a person and i know i look good at times but i still dont get why i get hit on all of a sudden now! its ridiculous. okay i think im rambling now. cause i wanna repeat everything lol. alright well imma stop talking now. bye!