yesterday i was texting my boyfriend when i woke up at one pm and i could tell he was having a bad day because he already ran out of money, his cousin went back home and he had no way to get anywhere or do anything so i came over at 5 and he wasnt doing anything except watching iron man 2 and when i came in he made me a grilled chesse :)

but last night before we went to bed we were talking and i loved it. we talked about when he first asked me out and how when i first told him no, and then i changed my mind and told him yes that i wanted to be in a relationship with him. he told me that he almost changed his mind and was gonna tell me if i wasnt really sure that he would want to start anything with me but he kept his mouth shut and i am so glad that he did.

he said to me “your the best girlfriend i’ve ever had”and i told him the same thing that he’s the best boyfriend i’ve ever had and i also said “okay i dont mean to be selfish, but im really happy that im your best girlfriend ever.”  and he laughed at me then kissed me. and he was telling me how im the only girlfriend he’s had thats actually brought out the best in him. and i told him that i want to do that, i want to bring out the best in him. i want to make everything better for him, even when things are already good. i want to make it way better. i want to be everything for you, i wanna be everything you want me to be. i always like being there for you.

and he was saying he hopes that he treats me good. and the way i should be treated and respected. and i said he does and he was telling me he always wants me to be happy. and always wants me to honest with him. because that’s what keeps a good relationship, always being on the same page. and im all “oh we are” :) ahah and he was all yeah i know we are, im just saying in the future i always want us to be that way.

and he asked me “so we’re going for another 5 months?” and i said “oh yes” :)

when he was saying that to me, asking if we’ll be together five months from now. i told him that makes me happy to have him think i’ll be in his future and he said he always wants me around and i said, i never want to leave.

we were saying how this 5 months have gone by so fast already and he said it’s like i just met you and i know so much about you and how everything is awesome between us and that he doesnt want this to change. he wants our relationship to always stay fresh and in love and not routine like how his brother’s relationship is. and that he wants us to always remember how we first started out and started falling in love with each other. and i told him “oh im never going to forget how we started out. i always remember how things started between us. even when im at home and stressed, i remember about you and all the good times we’ve had and then im happy. even when we just did something two three days ago i remember the little things we did and how awesome that was and im happy. even when im with you, i remember how things started out. i never want to forget those moments.” 

and he also mentioned that he would want to get married and everything but not anytime soon and how everyone thinks relationships should turn out because of what movies tell people how a relationship should be. and its not like how people assume it’ll be. every relationship is different. and i was totally agreeing with him. and i said yeah just like that first night i spent with him, i never expected us to do what we did. (cause our first date after we came back from the movies to go to his place, we ended up having sex. like literally more than ten times that night. i never ever expected that to happen. but it did. and it felt all so natural. like we both really wanted to be with eachother.) and i was telling him i never in my life would have ever expected to have sex on a first date because you’d expect that to be really trashy and the girl is a total whore. and he said no. and that thats just what people put on it. and i said yeah thats why i never thought i would ever do that and im so glad that i did. because i like where its put us. we have such a good relationship and i think part of it is because of that first night we spent together. im glad with how everythings happened.

ryan came into my life at the perfect time. i told him i thought this year was going to suck because i lost my dog, candy. and then i met him and everything just got so much better. and today its been exactly 9 months since i lost my dog. R.I.P. CANDY, I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. and i miss her everyday. and im happy i have ryan and that this year isnt shit. and ryan was telling me the same thing that he thought this year was going to suck also because he knew it was only going to be him and his mom. because before it was him, his brother and his mom. and now its just him and his mom. and he knew it was going to be bad this year, always being tight on money. and he said he’s glad he met me, cause if he didnt meet me he’d be going crazy. and im everything that he needs, and im all he’s ever wanted. and im so glad were in each other’s lives. this is working out so perfectly and i dont want it to stop. i dont want to stop loving him. i have so much love to give him. and im so happy.

and then he asked me what do i want to do when its six months for us and i said idk, as usual. and he was saying he wants to go to a steak dinner and maybe go to a movie. and then i said and lets get donuts also! and he said we’ll make donuts instead (cause he knows how to make donuts) and i said “even if we dont do all of that, im sure i’ll still have a really good time with you anyways. but too bad we probably wont be able to have sex.” and he’s all “ohh yeah cause everytime its our month, you’re on your period. did i really ask you when you were on your period?” and im all “yupp, sucks. you shoulda asked me before that, or after. so we could have sex on our anniversary.” and he’s all “maybe things’ll work out for us next month.” and im all “i doubt it, oh well”

but i cant wait for next month. im excited to be with my boyfriend and im excited to see what happens in the future, for us. i hope we really stay together forever because i never met anyone like him before. and i keep thinking about how my mom met my dad and they were both in their twenties when they met. and in december they’ll be married for 20 years, but they dated 10 years before that. i hope ryan and i stay together forever like that. i seriously want to marry him. but later on, cause i want to get my life together before i get married. but who knows whats gonna happen. im just happy and that’s all i care about, along with keeping my baby happy as well. and always being there for him. :)

LOVE ANJELICA

Watching this in ENG 101 and I just wanna punch Patrick Dempsey in the face. Dick.